I Am Angry

I am angry, and I want to kick.

This isn’t me; I didn’t ask to be picked.

Months of sickness, fatigue, and pain

Poisoning my body again and again

On the outside I smile and say all is well,

But inside I scream and yell

‘What did I do to deserve to my own, personal Hell?’

  I want to hide and I want to sleep,

I want to sleep until this year goes by

Just let me sleep, just let me cry

           

Don’t make me stand up, don’t make me walk

Why all these medicines? Why can’t I just stop?

But I will keep smiling, and I will keep

Lying, to make you happy, I will lock up inside

Don’t ask me why I choose to lie

Don’t ask me why I choose not to cry

I don’t want to hurt you

I don’t want you to cry.

Please don’t say you understand

Please don’t say you know

I know you want to understand

I know you want to know

But unless life took its toll on you

Unless you’ve worn my shoes

There’s no way to tell you what you want to know

You’ll try to learn

You’ll try to know, but my pain is a pain that’s just too hard to explain